This is a name, a lady, to whom i want to share the remaining of my entire life with, i want to grow old with, the person i want to show my care, the only person i tell my secrets, my plan for future my desire, the only person i want to share my intimate feelings romantically, the only person that i let myself hurt, the only person I will love over and over again. The only person i want to bound with, be my wife, mother of my child and MARRY. I LOVE YOU MAMA.
Sincerely Me,
Your Hopeless Romantic Man
I still see the warm smile on your face, the smile I wanted to see and lingers for the past few months. Months that full of days that filled up with our heart breaks and tears falling.Days that we cant escape leaving each other in pain and less hope. You know that I am person who knows a little of what’s going on.. a paranoid. Because of me, misunderstandings happened to us, selfish intentions and too much jealousy occurs. I am immune from this pain, I know that I can live with it and can go through it, not until i saw you. It was the greatest pain of my life. Seeing the person you dear most, cherish most, cared most hurt and suffering from pain. At ako ang may gawa ng lahat ng iyon. Hindi ako nakikinig pag nagsasalita ka pero ang boses mo ang laging hinahanap hanap ko. Nagseselos ako ng walang kabasihan at hindi na dapat, senseless, dahil ako lang naman ang sinisigaw mo at nilalaman ng puso mo. Hindi kita iniintindi pero kung alam mo lang kung paano ko nilalagyan ng space ang lahat ng sinasabi mo sa magulo at paranoid kung utak. Alam kong ayaw mong magkawalay tayo at sa totoo ay ganun din ako ayokong malayo sayo. Hindi ko gagawin yun dahil sa may gusto akong patunayan, wala akong dapat patunayan sa atin, gusto kong malaman mo na nandito ko ako dahil Mahal kita at ito ang nararamdaman ko sayo. Kung magbago man ang pakikitungo natin sa isat isa, I will still accept it, makita mo man o hinde, sinusubukan ko, hindi ko man mabalik and dati kong ugali o pakitutungo, sana matanggap mo pa rin ako ng buong buo at walang pag aalinlangan. I dont want to hurt you anymore pero GAGO ako alam kung kayo kung maiwasan pero hinde. I’ve cause you too much pain, but I Love you so much. Believe me I do. You’ve done so much to me. I appreciate it and cherish all of it. Lahat ng sinasabi mo sa akin lahat yun naalala ko at natatandaan ko. Nauunawan kita sana alam mo pa yun, at kahit papano ay nararamdaman mo pa rin yun. And I Hope you still feel my love for you. Last saturday I still see you smile, 2 months ko halos hindi nakita ang ganung ngiti. It overjoyed me so much, kasi nakita na despite on everything that happens we can still be with each other so happy. Alam ko may nagawa nanaman akong mali sayo, and Im too late to realize kung ano ang ginawa mo, and you only did that para makatulong na rin sa akin, you step up first to avoid na magaway nanaman tayo dahil sa past issues but still umiral nanaman ang ego ko. I’M VERY SORRY MAHAL ko, Im sorry kung ano man ang mangyayari sa atin mamaya tatanggapin ko, but Im still hoping na bukas pagising mo ako pa rin ang nagpapasaya sa puso mo. I hope you still give me the right to take the pain away because I can. Maybe not now and it take sometime. But can you allow me to be still the man to do that, can i still be your vain-mate, lunch buddy, partner in crime, listener, your lover, your MAC.
I dont want you to go, Please stay.. And if i tell you I LOVE YOU,would that be enough…